is it already the middle of december? really? 2009? this year is so…
18th-Dec-2009 10:19 pm
is it already the middle of december? really? 2009? this year is so close to being over. i'm pretty thankful for that, actually. even though i'm a fan of odd numbers, and odd years stand out in my mind, this year has had some truly amazing moments. really, really amazing ones. but i feel like it's time for something new, some sort of change or cosmic change or something. i've been reading harry potter at work, i started deathly hallows yesterday and i'm already more than a third of the way through. i've been trying to save money, but instead i've been paying off smaller debts i have. that's better than spending my bonus on a new computer or an ipod or tv... but still, i need money to move out, which will hopefully be happening soon. february-ish. or march. i had chinese food for dinner and it made me feel so sick. now i'm starving. i'm watching julie/julia. that doesn't help me be any less starving. i need to make changes and actually follow through. i need to stay connected with people. write my own stories. keep things clean. exercise.
i've been trying to take walks during my lunch hour. i drive down to the center of middleboro and walk around the block, usually drinking something warm from cafe milano, stuffed from something pastry-like and freezing to the bone. i've been wearing ugly socks with my flats because idont have any warm weather work appropriate shoes. i walk by the library and think about going inside. i look through all the store windows. one day i butted in on a `conversation with a woman who owned a boutique i was browsing through. i seriously love the center of middleboro. it's so cute and small and there's all these little places that are so foreign though i pass them all the time. it's so so so cold out. the countdown until spring begins in two weeks -- i realized last year that i start that countdown every year, announcing it here, and i didn't even realize that i had done it the year before.
anyway, what have you all been up to? i feel so disconnected.
also, can i tell you how pissed/annoyed i am by these POP UP ads that livejournal is throwing at us? ridiculous and annoying and that really makes me consider finding somewhere else to write.